Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Holy Spirit Embarassment


This afternoon Kylie and I met for a quick coffee break at our usual Bridgeville meeting spot, La Bella Bean (if you’ve ever come to Bridgeville to have lunch or coffee with me, this is also our usual spot—because it’s the only cool place in Bridgeville).  I am so excited because A) The Lord faithfully provided an awesome job for Kylie B) She no longer has to spend five hours a night crafting color-coded PDF updates on her job search (hehe love you, Kylie! J) C) I will now have a new working friend in Bridgeville and D) We will hopefully become regulars at La Bella Bean and they’ll know our order as soon as we walk in.

Anyways, Kylie and I were chatting while I was standing in line to order my afternoon coffee when a cute little girl came running through the door in to the arms of one of the employees.  We wondered what the relationship is between the two girls, and we dropped our voices a bit while commenting that the girl working behind the counter looked too young for that to be her daughter.  I didn’t think much about it until later when I saw the employee nod to us with an upset look and whisper to her coworker that “those girls” had been talking about her and her daughter.

#humbled.

I immediately zoned out of my conversation with Kylie and got a pit in my stomach.  We knew what we had to do.  I believe Kylie even used the phrase “cloak it in love”—#christiangirlproblemz.  So before leaving we quietly apologized to the employee and her coworkers and even stayed and chatted a bit with all of the employees who are so sweet.

Being humbled, even to the point of embarrassment, is such amazing testimony to the Spirit of Christ living inside of me!  After the hard part of apologizing was over (and yes, I think I got hives during my apology), I was so EXCITED to remember that I have the presence of God in me!  I can imagine there are people who could have cared less if they saw others calling them out on their gossip.  There are probably people who would have even fired back (I’m playing out a scene in my head right now where the girl in my position stands up in the restaurant and shouts, “I will cut ‘chu!”…I think I’ve been listening to too much rap music).  But the Spirit inside of me was grieved by knowing that I had done wrong to someone, and He wouldn’t let me leave until I made it right.

It is sooo so so great to live in the light.  Even as I thought about writing this post, I decided it couldn’t wait until tonight because I needed to write while it was still light out.  It’s just better.

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